I know, but- if he did care about me, you think it might show at some point! All he ever does is yell at me and call me names and act like he hates me! I have feelings! I'm not just some- some stupid doll that he can throw away all the time and then pick up whenever he needs me!
He never even picks me up. I always have to get up by myself.
He's not even going to apologize for what he said to me, is he? He won't, not even if I want to make up with him. I'll have to pretend like it doesn't hurt my feelings and just put up with it until he does it again.
I know he's a good person. Why can't he just be a good person to me?
ha ha flute that's silly! i'm not nervous at all! garnet is just a good friend of mine there's nothing more to it! she'll take good care of you so you should definitely go
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[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 07:55 am (UTC)Maybe it was that he wanted me to leave him alone.
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 07:58 am (UTC)he does it because he's afraid.
[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:02 am (UTC)He never even picks me up. I always have to get up by myself.
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:10 am (UTC)he pushes you away because he's afraid you'll get hurt if you get too close. he's always been that way.
the only way to deal with it is to push back.
[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:15 am (UTC)He's not even going to apologize for what he said to me, is he? He won't, not even if I want to make up with him. I'll have to pretend like it doesn't hurt my feelings and just put up with it until he does it again.
I know he's a good person. Why can't he just be a good person to me?
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:19 am (UTC)i'll talk to him.
[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:23 am (UTC)It's okay if he feels however he feels about me, really. I don't want to change his mind or anything. I just want him to be happy.
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:25 am (UTC)but he doesn't think he's allowed to be happy.
[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:28 am (UTC)I guess... just tell me what he says.
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:30 am (UTC)i can't...do it any time soon, though. i really hurt him.
[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:36 am (UTC)[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:37 am (UTC)[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 08:46 am (UTC)It's not your fault either, or Hamel's.
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:01 am (UTC)are you still finding someplace else to stay?
[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:03 am (UTC)I think it will be good. We all need some time to calm down.
[Private to Flute] 1/2
Date: 2009-03-29 09:05 am (UTC)[Private to Flute] 2/2
Date: 2009-03-29 09:06 am (UTC)[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:08 am (UTC)What's wrong?
[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:09 am (UTC)[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:09 am (UTC)[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:11 am (UTC)[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:12 am (UTC)[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:14 am (UTC)[Private to Raiel]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:15 am (UTC)[Private to Flute]
Date: 2009-03-29 09:17 am (UTC)[Private to Raiel]
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