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[unluckymelody]

I think I need somewhere new to stay.

Would anyone mind having me?

Comments

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

you know he cares about you, flute.

no matter what he says, you're very important to him.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

He wanted to tell me something earlier this week, but the computer glitched. I thought, since it's Valentine's...

Maybe it was that he wanted me to leave him alone.

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

that's not true at all, flute!

he does it because he's afraid.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

I know, but- if he did care about me, you think it might show at some point! All he ever does is yell at me and call me names and act like he hates me! I have feelings! I'm not just some- some stupid doll that he can throw away all the time and then pick up whenever he needs me!

He never even picks me up. I always have to get up by myself.

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

flute...

he pushes you away because he's afraid you'll get hurt if you get too close. he's always been that way.

the only way to deal with it is to push back.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

...I know that, Raiel. But I am getting hurt.

He's not even going to apologize for what he said to me, is he? He won't, not even if I want to make up with him. I'll have to pretend like it doesn't hurt my feelings and just put up with it until he does it again.

I know he's a good person. Why can't he just be a good person to me?

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

...i really hate seeing him do this to you.

i'll talk to him.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

You're really sweet, Raiel. Thank you for everything.

It's okay if he feels however he feels about me, really. I don't want to change his mind or anything. I just want him to be happy.

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

you make him happy, flute.

but he doesn't think he's allowed to be happy.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

... I think I just need a few days to settle down. I'll be back soon.

I guess... just tell me what he says.

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

...okay.

i can't...do it any time soon, though. i really hurt him.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

I'm just sorry this happened at all.

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

it isn't your fault, flute. don't blame yourself. please.

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

Okay. I won't.

It's not your fault either, or Hamel's.

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

right.

are you still finding someplace else to stay?

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Garnet said I could come stay with her for a while. She's really very nice.

I think it will be good. We all need some time to calm down.

[Private to Flute] 1/2

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

[Private to Flute] 2/2

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

...garnet? really?

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

Yes, she offered and I know I can trust her.

What's wrong?

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

nothing is wrong! why would anything be wrong!? garnet is a perfectly wonderful person and you can definitely trust her!

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

Why do you look so nervous?

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

WHY WOULD I BE NERVOUS

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

How would I know? You tell me!

[Private to Flute]

[pianistofraieln.livejournal.com]

ha ha flute that's silly! i'm not nervous at all! garnet is just a good friend of mine there's nothing more to it! she'll take good care of you so you should definitely go

[Private to Raiel]

[unluckymelody.livejournal.com]

I'm not gonna tell her anything, you know.